Breakkk

I need a break!! Coz m bored - Its as simple as it gets.
I'm friggin exhausted of this routine. Tired of regular labs, assignments, record submissions. Just superr tired.
And if anyone's feeling the same? then please let me know the verdict of this. Coz Hey! same2sameee *low-5* ;)
Of all things, I would actually smile with idiocy is when I think of whole new bunk of books waiting to be read, Double choco chip icecream safely resting in refrigerator andand Pepsi waiting with enthu to be sipped ( btw love at first sip )
And the fact I've missed on many movies makes me go crazy.
So, I take a break.
Sit and finish whatever movies, movies, music I've slipped so far.

• A Separation [ Check]
• Les Miserables [Check]
• Zero Dark Thirty [Check]
• The Ugly Truth [Check]
• Cube Zero [Check]
• The Objective [Check]
• Two weeks notice  [Check]

Still, there exists a bunch of them which can't be put in amiss.
I have strange thing for photographs. Not much of a poser but I like keeping them. Much sorta, remembering That day in my own weird way. Hence, picture cuts and editing job has been taken upon.
And I swear I'd instantly dislike you if bring up " How're you?" " everything ok?" or anything related to studies. Pliss! Nope I'm not perfectly fine coz who'd be soo casually lazing around when exams are up ahead? So, NEVER MIND.

This book "The Litigators" which m currently reading isn't soo promising so far. Though I've just read half of it. It somehow fails to be a thriller in accordance to John Grisham who pledged it to be so. But there'z 260 odd pages left to finish, hope it changes my opinion.

Anyway, I'm sick of Facebook and twitter too. ( Yeah! you heard it right )
I'll brb when m out of this too-bored-to-give-a-damn paranoma.
Thereby, this is How I feel - Distant from everything

I can't end this post without mentioning this song.
Its stuck in my head for so so so longg

Lana del Ray just makes it sound so gorgeous.

In case you were wondering,

Nope I'm no sad.

I know, my post makes no sense afterall.

But yeah, Imma happy girlll 

And so should everyone bound to be!

Till next post,

Cheers youu :-)

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You're my merry

You're that dream

 I can never remember..

You're that memory

 which can never get faded..

You're that happiness

 I can never own.

You're that wishlist..

 in which sea of emotions gets welled up..

You're that star 

which twinkles tauntingly and vanishes..

You're that fear

I can never embrace

You're that fiction

of a romantic novel

You're that inspiration

which makes me recreate melodies

You're that early hot coffee

which would hurt my tongue, yet I'd sip..

You're that smile

which pricks a tear unavoidably..

You're that pretentious mistake..

which I'd make anyway..

You're that wall

I can never lean..

You're that run

I can never keep...

You're my guileless bewilderment

You're beyond them, You're beyond all..

You're my Recklessly Mean Merry to beam about. 

And what do I do when I dunno what to do? I DRAW. YESSSH!
Wheee! It feels good. So, Yay!
If only I had enough colours :(
I'd have doodled more..

And you know what makes me so excited?
My blog's birthday goes hand-in-hand with Christmassy eve :D

So, Merry Christmas people!!
Lets hope for faith with glee :D


Happy week ahead :-)

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You name it..What? Meaningless? Okay

I have nothing to write, yet I wanna write..weird, no?
Okay, so what do I write? Where does inspiration vanish just when you need it dearly?

Holding onto the possibilities..
 For as speechless a melody can make us
        as many perceptions our pea-sized head can draw
        as  far as our lameness can take us by surprise
        as mysterious as a tale of Raymond Chandler
        as delicate as the touch of colorful bubbles...

Rest I dunno :P
I can't think of any..
Maybe I don't know how to describe this..

                                             
Sometimes inspite of being clear of what you don't want,
we have no clue of what we want even..
 Like when people ask me " So.. what will you do next year?" I simply hide behind a book
 There are two sides for every thought of mine..
 To top it all, I dunno whats with me and this pensive talk...


Life's.. just unfortunate at this point.
It's in such a big puddle of MESS.
I know I should do something to fix it or make sure that It's the same as before.
But, frankly.. I'm just too tired to care anymore.

I wish I could tell you how ridiculously toxic you are to me..
If only I could comprehend this, at all
or know what to do with this assumption.
On one side is you, with whom I don't mind sharing all the silliest talk..
On the other, there's this voice-in-my-head asking me not to be vulnerable much.
I don't mind seriously. For I'm not scared anymore...


What have I got to loose anyway?
Inspite of you being the one the reason I regret putting my guard down.
There's still this fear of not having you to talk to after a pointless day.
But, then you decided to turn your eyes back.
Which I'm sure you are doing now.. :P

All I can say is..
No matter how pissed off you make me..
                     how angry I get you to be..
                     how much I would regret writing this. (I'm ignoring that part)
                       A part of me is always going to care.
                                And, as much as I hate it. 
                            I know that even after everything,
           I'm always gonna choose you to talk to at the end of the day.                       
Because..
Someone just told me..
People may leave when you're not looking..
Moments pass when you just start living in it.

P.S. Okay loong boring post, no? Anyway one good thing of last week is Mom's birthday :D
        She'z happy she said. And you just know it sometimes. What more do I want?


Happy week ahead :-)

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Nothing hits harder than..No Sleep!

Its weird how things seems perfect for a sec turn out to be a feigned image formed in head.

I overthink. Yes.
And what help does it do? Well, it blesses me bouts of headache which is nothing more or less like a hangover without actually drinking. Huh! its huge.
Peaceful sleep seem like a myth these days.
Talks with my bestie. Don't help.
Watching sitcoms. Don't help.
Book world. Don't help either.
I've read this book "The Other side of Midnight" by Sidney for I dunno like ages. I lost my grip at it. Book'z good but not as captivating like his other best works i.e. Master of the Game or Tell me your Dreams etc.
And ofcourse never take too many breaks amidst your read. It will only diminish your interest.
"If Tomorrow comes" is one book am awaiting.
Okay, back to the main point. Sleep just ditches me for no apparent reason. I hardly manage to sleep for 3 hrs in the whole day.
And to make matters worse..
I stop talking suddenly.
Start loosing my temper.

I dunno what'z the state of my mind. All it does is shout I don't want this.
I'm disturbed.
May be I'm no good at expressing self.
May be people aren't what I thought they were. And I've mistaken much.
I dunno what more I expect from life.
I dunno why I give this undying prior to few people.
I dunno why I get upset on things I should be least bothered about.
I dunno why I cut off people who of all would never put me in a position to doubt my craziness.
I dunno who kidnapped my wishful thinking.
                           
But these effing thoughts are so consuming that zoom out peace from life.
I don't wanna care. Not a inch more or less.

Anyway all the complaints come down to..
Sometimes we need a patient person who'd let you rant, cry, listen to all the crap and still term you cool :D
Sometimes we need them to tell us we're happy and make us believe it. May be for little time.
Sometimes we need to be THAT PERSON ourselves.
Coz hey! we're no less than awesome. ;)

So, my blog's anniversary'z in 13days!!
Can't believe I've managed a year of monsters in invisibility cloak ;)
Of all the amiss. Writing makes me feel good. Its an attempt to leave a trail of weariness behind.
And as long as we're talking of being really strange. Welcome to my life. :P

Till next post...
Cheers :-)

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Such Randomness

Life can be confusing, that we all know
But I didn't know Mother Nature can be confusing too..
Anyways first read this :P

I've got a complaint to Nature--

                              Why Oh Why? Do you shower like its the end of the world,
        right when we're having our exams and frizzle this soothing cool breeze when we're using our life-long-will-power to study for the next day's exam... How could we possibly read with you thundering all night and sending us secret messages like Enough of studying, go sleeepp!


                             And somehow when we are done with our exams..and with the given few holidays we expect you to still be the same. But no! You Change.. You become Sunny and force us to stay indoors..
  Why Haan Why? Why wouldn't you let us enjoy your titter-pattering noise? Why couldn't you just stay for few more days?

No. I don't want flood or something..
It would've been good if you just drizzled for a bit in the evening..
Making it cool enough to let us sit in our balcony reading or having a cup of coffee or just talking with my Mom..
It would've been enough, you know...
Bouts of time spent with you are always felt worthwhile :)
I don't know what kind of a storm is whirling inside your head but make me understand, may be?

Okay I forgive you this time :P
But next time, plan  your day in accordance with me no..please ;)


For a few moments, its fine to allow yourself the luxury of slipping into make-believe world where You wish for things and they actually happen...

I didn't end my post just yet..and this pic came out of no where, so am gonna talk about it anyway :P
Btw he's my Dad! :)

Him And Me <3

I'm not bragging or something but he's actually fun to be with...
He passes comments just like us,
He laughs at my jokes ( Sometimes only to make me happy..but lets ignore that part Ok)
He the reason I hate my nose.
He can be irritating at times, like repeating the same thing over and over. The weird part is, he knows it!
He never agrees to me at my first go. But a li'l pestering is enough for him to say "Let's see" and my works done already! :D
I take him for granted. Not a good thing but What to do.
I love him soo much that I would make sure that he never comes across this post :D


Oh yeah! Its festi week ahead..
We all have our own share of sour grapes,
So lets pray that we get to eat them less and enjoy the taste of happiness with cherry.. ;)
Talking about eating, am off to eat my double cheese burst pizza. ( Not much of a cheese fan but just trying..)

Happy Diwali... :-)
Be safe..
Merry week ahead.

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That'd be great

We shall sing our song
Upon the roof, underneath the glinting stars
We shall write our song
Weaving words of comfy silence
Lulling each other to sleep

Coz we choose 
                           Maggi and hot chocolate over ritzy dinners
                           Gleaming light and an old song over Disco jazz
                           A simple delightful icecream over fancy desserts
                           Handwritten letters over costly gifts ( Nothing..I mean like NOTHING can beat this feeling of reading a letter. No matter how mushy or cliche it may be :D )
                         
Y'know, what else we could do?
                           Dance crazy like maniacs. (Yes! Chandler kinda dance is more fun :P )
                           We can kid each other.
                           Roam hand in hand laughing
                           Blabber lame/idiotic/nonsensical stuff. By virtue of being happy.

We will just be fine better Awesome.
We are proud of our flaws
We together laugh at our stupidity and flex our cool selves most fully.
Coz our definition of  Peace is Having each other by our side FTW
             
                                        

                                         Captured by my close-est friend :D
                                          And and little editing done :P
                                          Oh! Did I tell you how much I love her?
                                          She'z one crazy adorable self @Sowmya :)

  Ending on a happy note
   Cyah! till next post
   Cheers  
   Spread smiles :) :)                       

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On the note of 'Lists'

My "Oh My God, Why?" list:

1. Why is it that we like to confide in strangers?
2. Why do we (especially ME)  ALWAYS  make someone the "center of my universe" ? when clearly my presence is "Nothing" to them??
3. Why do we hold all the little moments, wrap them, write about them and hide it safely in our secret closet...reliving each bit of them in our dreams?? when those "someone" can't even recall them.
4. Why do we always try to be genuinely nice to those who've done nothing but gossip about you?
5. Is being diplomatic helpful?
6. Why do we feel so far even if we are with people who are absolutely fun to be with?
7. Why should we pretend like nothing ever happened? when all you want to do is shout, yell and spill out the demons-inside-your-head.
8. Why should I be on guard with my free-spirited gypsy unafraid to speak my mind attitude? so on... (there's lot more)

I'm actually expecting a background score from Karan Johar ( It would add to the moment you know ;) )


My "Lets Be.." list:

1. Lets be careless, mad and senselessly un-monitored with 'being our self'
2. Blah to those who put on magnifying glasses and inspect each word of yours to twist them.
3. Shoo away those who look upon all angles to put/bring you down. ( They should've been very good with Geometry, no? ok, bad one :P )
4. Always give a stand to those who y'know would do the same when tables turn. Yes, expectation is good only if they're your closest ones. ( Lets not fool ourselves with the word 'close' now!)
5. Lets make up after big big fights.
6. Lets laugh and make fun of each other only in each others presence.
7. Lets have those pointless talks, unguided walks.
8. Lets not make anyone feel odd or left out. Happiness comes when smiling faces multiplies.
so on...


Too much whining going around, no?
This song should make up for it ;)
          

                        Of companionship as cold as Ice

                                              Lets not alter our views depending on the 'actions'. They are momentary, impulsive or may be just may be has a  story of itself. If we care, ponder on the 'cause' otherwise just 'let it be' who cares? 

Little poetry: 

A walk, little talks...
A song, to fit in silences..
A sarcastic taunt, to brush the nervousness..
A little longing, post meetings..
A speck of silliness, to mentor our course..
A escape, for all unasked promises..
A Just This moment, to set eyes wandering for reasons..
A melodramatic fight, for laughter..
Because 
Not All Who Wish For Are Left Disappointed...
Tiny moments of joy strengthens you through all odds!!                            




If you've friends who are half as crazy as you, who fathom easily, and so you can possibly be your sappy and cranky self. Then you sir, are damn lucky. *Obligatory sniff and a bow*


Thanks for listening,
Cheerios for happy week ahead :-)

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Know ME

                                       Its been long since I've last blogged. The regular poems makes it sound so monotonous *Really*. So, its time I come up with something other hand.Generally, I'm the most talkative person :-P. Trust me, this is going to be a looong post. Of late, I was wondering about the hashtag I've seen on twitter #100factsaboutme. My first opinion was 'who is going to write them anyway?' but frankly why not?. Its real hard to ponder what you actually like or what you really believe in...butbut 100 things about you??..hmm..needs a lot of thought processing *winks*

Wait...Play this music while you read along...!

                                       

#1. I love beaches. Like madly in love with them.

#2. Rains always amazes me. Its real bliss to stare out of the window with soothing songs slowly popping in your ears.

#3. I always carry a book with me. I mean like ALWAYS. Never ever you'll find me without it. I'm crazy that way.

#4. I love every little thing. Soft toys, sparkle pens, so on..

#5. I hate arguing over things.

#6.The more I miss someone, the more and more I read to forget them.

#7.You are way too special if I still reply to your monosyllabic texts.

#8.I crave for comedy.

#9. I can still watch any F.R.I.E.N.D.S show and end up laughing my head out.

#10. I'm not much into gadgets.

#11. I like decorating things.

#12.I clean up my room myself. Few things are to be done on our own.

#13. I'm more likely a morning person. Its hard for me to stay up late. I can but I don't want to.

#14. For me people are replaced with books when alone.

#15. I talk a lot. And hey, I listen too.

#16. I don't like keeping secrets with people I'm close to.

#17. I trust people fast. And thereby end up hurt.

#18. I don't think while I'm talking.

#19. Love fighting for chocolates.

#20. Morning rides on beach road is a blessing. Really, I tell you.

#21. I can't see anyone crying. It hurts when you can't stop it.

#22. I can't console people. Someone teach me seriously.

#23. I can't eat more. My appetite is such. I loove junky food.

#24. You have my respect if you get me cupcakes, brownies, chocolates, KFC Krushers, chicken pop corn.

#25. I can never say no to books. You can gift me. :D

#26. I hate taking decisions.

#26. Choosing between things is definitely a tough task. I can't.

#27. I can never do window shopping. If I like something, I'll surely get it.

#28. That reminds me, Shopping is a cool therapy ;)

#29. I'm more comfortable with Dad. Much like my fun self.

#30. When happy, I phone up Mom first.

#31.I never watch horror movies alone. In fact, I rarely watch them.

#32. I find mysteries intriguing in both books and people.

#33. I clap hands and start jumping when I'm too happy.

#34. I dance like a freak :D. They are no moves, just flow with the music.

#35. I never judge people by what others tell about them. For me, first impression isn't the last impression.

#36. I can never confront people. In my vain attempts, I end up apologizing myself to set things down.

#37. I sing ONLY when I'm alone.

#38. Its not easy for me to accept my love for my very few friends. I don't express them every now and then.

#39. I take my bro's advice seriously. I have this 'he can never be wrong' wala feeling.

#40. I miss my school days.No no, I don't miss my school friends. I miss the school-ME

#41. I like gulab jamoon a LOT. I keep pestering my Mom to make them.

#42. I love those heart to heart talks with my closest friends.

#43. I love fighting over silly things with people I'm most comfortable with.

#44. I love being crazy. Making mistakes is my right!.

#45. I don't mind if I'm wrong at times. What will you learn by being perfect?

#46. At times, those small little conversations is more than enough.

#47. I think way tooo much and end up crying.

#48.Songs that speak your heart makes me smile.

#49. I adore kids. Time spent with them goes unnoticed. Really.

#50.No matter how sad I'm, I put up a smile when I'm with people. I'm strong that way.

#51.The thought of july makes me jump.* birthday month*

#52. Birthdays excite me. Be it mine or my friend's.

#53. I love re-playing parts of the song.

#54. I don't talk when I'm upset or overthinking.

#55. I never reply when I'm angry.

#56. I don't handle pressure well. It'll make things worse.

#57. Its easy to catch me when I'm lying.

#58. I enjoy the evenings of rainy season. I want them to last long.

#59. Crayons, sketches, colour pencils are my boredom companions.

#60.I believe in fairytales. There's always a hope for happy endings.

#61. I don't keep telling people how much they mean to me. These things are to be left for them to realize.

#62. I don't give up easy.

#63. Few things are easily forgiven but never forgotten. I remember things.

#64. Its nice to remember my first talk with someone. Our first meeting. I do that.

#65. I secretly wish for a life like in fairytale. *too much to wish for?*

#66. I adore Nicholas Sparks, Jeffrey Archer's works. I can't get enough of them.

#67. I'd like to have copyrights of Taylor and Adele's songs :D . They write my heart out..!!

#68. I still watch cartoons.

#69. If  I like you, I wouldn't ponder or dig your past. Because, frankly it doesn't really matter :)

#70. I'm finely affected by instrumental music. Violin, Piano, so on ..hold spotless beauty.

#71. I talk to myself.

#72. Anger fetches me more tears than sadness.

#73. I love people with good sense of humour.

#74. I like staring out of my window and sipping my hot hot chai.

#75. At times, I'm easily misunderstood.

#76. Time doesn't change things. I tell you.

#77. I take pleasure in cracking lame jokes with people I love.

#78. I can never let go people I'm fond of.

#79. I don't like sharing my best friends with anyone. I'm possessive this way and I don't mind :|

#80. Every coincidence has a reason. I believe it.

#81.Couch + Book + soft music + Coke = Blessing!

#82. I live it up in irritating people I'm close to.

#83. I cry when there's tragedy in the book I'm reading or in movies.Yes.

#84. I like high heels. Pencil heels are too good, if only I manage to walk in them :s

#85. I don't remember my dreams.* good or bad? *

#86. I write when I'm upset.

#87. I never ever cry in public. I try my best to control, till I fall apart in my room.

#88. I like long drives.

#89. I try way hard to get something I've always wanted. I give my best.

#90. I love surprises.

#91. I love everything that makes me laugh and giggle.

#92. I usually toss between letting go and moving on.

#93. My poor little brain, I never listen to it.

#94. I'm more of a impulsive person. I strictly believe in instincts.

#95. There's a small cute voice inside our heart. Listen to it, it shall guide you.

#96. I love smiling faces. Purity of innocence is hard to find.

#97. Be genuinely silly. I am, its fun :P

#98. I stay with people who always stood up for me.

#99. I can never be 'just friends' with people I adore. They are much much more :)

#100. I praise relationships that are simple.The simpler, the best.

Yippeee!!...See..I've made it! :D :P


Thanks a lot for your patience..

Happy weekend ahead :-)

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My "Love" Story

                          I`ve never been a believer of love-at-first-sight.I staunchly believed it to be an early indication of the new era`z apocalypse. And to think it was plagiarised too. Well, not until that fateful friday...

                         I came back from my college in the afternoon. My dad was waiting for me, as we planned to do my birthday shopping that evening. Being a tiring day, I`ve decided to go on a long walk by the beach. It all began like this...

                        I was sitting on the bench eating a ice cream (which is my usual beach-session`z rule).I seldom come here with my friends, it was my thinking place, the place I just leave my mind to wander, just set it free and let it be. With no pressure, no things to do, no deadlines it was relaxing. When...all of a sudden it got windy, and how! It went "whoooosssssshhhhh..." and "whooooossssssshhhh"! Ahhhhh!!! Tiny rocks and pebbles tinkered on the feet and I got blown off (literally!).I stood up to leave but then I saw HIM. Yes! He was right there beside me, staring intently with those innocent eyes (Dunno! for how long!). He was in his best-self, wearing my favourite blue T .He gave a smile And I was above the heaven, already a mile I get the goose-bumps when I think of him.

                                           Clouds like a war fleet gathering around,

                                            with claps of thunder,

                                            And streaks of light...

                                            Like an approaching sense  of apocalyptic doom

                                            It intimidates everyone in sight,

                                            Enveloping me in its cool embrace,

                                            An escape from the grey clouds inside...

Oh! I can`t tell you how good it felt...!

                        I could`nt speak a word. I wanted that moment to be paused right there. And so it had to happen...I took HIM to my home!. Absolutely brain-dead at that moment...

                                          Love is such a Wonderful Thing,

                                           Blissful when I was little thing!

                                          I might had a crush on Leo (Leonardo Dicaprio)

                                          But this new-pal of mine stole my heart...

                                      

                                          Of all I was full of Emotions,

                                         Emotions which I thought never existed,

                                         We were friends Or were we?

                        And now I could`nt control. Like a car with a tank full of petrol, went running home shouting out loud to my mom, to show my new found- love!     

                                      
                                        

                                         Lol ! yeah!! this was what I found !

                                         It was there on the bench un-claimed!

                                         Poor thing! could leave it...!

                                         Between I named it "Love"

                           I love every little thing that comes my way. I love every book I get to read (Well, Some books are just books. Some are much more) with instrumental music playing around. Books yeah! this definitely deserves an entire post. I love long drives with my crazy-stupid-awesome-est-friends. I love those tiny little chats that leaves a smile on your face whole day. Its just that you can`t plan everything in your life, when you have a plan all charted out and dreams of a life that fits perfectly in the plan, it is really scary to wake up one day and find yourself standing in front of a different chart with half-baked plans and dreams. Very scary!. So yeassshh! I care for every little thing, they definitely leave an impact on me...

As we are talking about love, its definitely incomplete without this...

To my love,

                                      If I could write our love...

                                     It would be with permanent ink

                                     something that could never smear even 

                                   if to the bottom of the ocean it did sink!

                                     

                                    If I could write our love...

                                   to show the romance of our relationship

                                  that was sent from above

                                    it would be typed in the cursive of French Script

                                 And the paper would be white,

                                    pure and crisp as a dove

      

                                 If I could write our love...

                                 it would be a great piece of art,

                                 it would be kept away from everything,

                                  close to me...protected...

                                 so it could never be torn apart..

                      

                                                                                      sincerely,

                                                                                             Me

Thanks for the read,

Cheers :-)

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iHidden

"When you try your best, but you don't succeed, when you get what you need, but not what you want..."
                      You`ve got one life they say but how can they easily ignore the countless compromises it comes with.However, every thought, every line, every word that we pen down in our 'not so' personal diaries gives growth to a writer-bud within you...
                      It lets you Hide and Whisper those tiny little words which seem to be loud cries of your heart. It gives hope in sadness, something that insists life to be seen from a more optimistic view...though this optimism may seem far fetched sometimes...
                                       
                                      
                                        
                                       Do you know how it feels to be ignored?
                                      Do you know how it feels to not be a 
                                      part of someone`s happiness?
                                      Do you know how it feels to be a reason
                                      of someone`s cry?

                                     They are certain human emotions
                                      that rob our lives from our hands...
                                     And its intriguing how we surrender ourselves to them
                                     Like we are under some spell...!!
                                     But these vibes are not pain!
                                     its a struggle to keep up...
                                     Sometimes it so happens,
                                     You have to realize that some people can  
                                     Stay In Your Heart Forever...
                                     But not in your life.
                                              

  For that happiness running in the parallel universe, for the peace and serenity it might bring, but for now its- Hiding Behind My Words!
                                        
                                      

 So, yes! these are certain fragments of my dairy...                       

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